Vell's Rainbowfied Life.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

WORK WORK WORK

Am working from home right now to kill my evening.

Yun has gone to S'pore for holiday. So I have the whole room for myself.

I don't quite used to sleeping alone in Indo. It's so quiet. Just me and my laptop while the songs are playing on the iTunes. Reminds me of when I was still in S'pore :D

But I've brought work home today. The system for my department needs to be improved. There are so many things done manually that it takes a lot of time to complete my admin stuff.

I love to work. Not the kind of work that would make me stress due to fear. The very 1st job I had in S'pore was so customer oriented that I was so afraid to handle the customer, in this case, the students. It's totally not easy to be in the customer service line. The stress made my whole face full of pimples. Never in my whole 25 years have I had that much pimples, not even when I was in my puberty stage. Sobs.

That job really taught me a lot though. I had fun here and there too.

Thank God for all the experiences :) Thinking back, I was so foolish to be so scared. Hahaha.

Vell Signed off ♥ 10:02 PM

Saturday, December 18, 2010

WHY VERY INCONSIDERATE?:

Is it me who thinks too much or is there an increasing number of inconsiderate people around?

I know I'm not perfect, that I can be irritating and annoying to others too. But, at least I think of other people's feelings a lot (at least I think I do) and this habit is killing me like literally. I also prefer to be more ignorant like they do, if I could, but I just can't. If I manage to hurt anybody's feelings, I'm truly sorry. I'm sure I didn't mean to, unless you got me really pissed.

So anyway, I've been seriously annoyed when my space is invaded lately. If you can live in a messy room while I can't, the least you can do is not to spread your messy-ness into my territory. Or even if you still wanna be messy, at least move your body when I ask you nicely to clean up your mess. It's exhausting to be a nanny of an adult you know? And it is also very annoying to be cleaning all your mess up all the time. I don't get any appreciation for doing the job do I? Do you thank me? Do you even remember that I clean it up for your sake?

Another thing I can't stand is when 1 person can be out having fun, not caring about how the person at home is feeling. I'm so tired of always worrying for people who don't even have the courtesy to inform me that they're coming home late or something. How could they be so heartless? Is it coz I pamper them too much that I'm taken advantage of? Have you ever worry about me when I'm out somewhere at night? I guess you haven't. That's why you always don't know how I feel waiting for you to come home safely.

Adding on, how could anybody be so heartless to always "unconsciously" disturb other people's peace in the middle of the night or early morning? Do you not know that by doing so, you will disturb my sleep? Do you also not know that I'm rather sleep deprived already? Since I need to wake up early to go to work. My sleeping time is already not proper and you're making it worse by making so much noise. Thanks a lot. It's already difficult enough for me to doze off and I bet you already know this from long ago. But you just can't be bothered to care coz all you can think of is yourself. Which hurts me a lot.

This world doesn't revolve around you alone. Even if you're the cleverest, wealthiest, coolest, the most good looking person on earth, you still don't own the world (unless you're God). Wake up! Open your eyes and see that this world is full of people and not just you! Human beings with feelings, like yourself, are breathing the same air as you! No man is an island. No matter how you wish you could survive by yourself, you just won't be able to do so. That's why God created Eve to accompany Adam, coz He knew Man can't live alone.

You can't blame others who acts the same way as you do. Coz you just mirror each other. Hence, please do some self-reflection. Like my big bro had advised 1 of our staff: 'when 1 person dislike you, perhaps the problem lies between you two. But if it's a group of people we're talking about, then there has to be something wrong with you personally, be it your way of doing things or your character/personality'.

You don't give a shit on how much effort I put in to keep this relationship as it is now. My hard work go wasted most of the time. Before you know it, there might not be anymore relationship between us.

We grow older each day. But your behavior portrays otherwise. Time will not wait for us. Our youth won't last long. Don't you wanna be productive for your own sake? Don't you wanna be a somebody, maybe not to the whole world, but at least to yourself and your family in the future? I really wonder what is it that makes you who you are now? What did we do wrong in helping you to grow? Where did we go wrong? Coz you don't seem to mature in the correct way to me.

I believe I've shown much love towards you that I'm almost dried up. If you can't feel it, you're simply too ignorant to notice. And it's definitely not my fault. I'm running out of ideas of how to change you. I guess I'll just live it up to God to mould you to become a better person.

Vell Signed off ♥ 4:02 PM

Thursday, December 16, 2010

AGNES MONICA FEVER

I just had a revelation that I've been one of Agnes Monica's big fan for a couple of years now. This is rare for me coz I used to have neutral feelings towards all artistes, not wanting to go head over heels for any of them. I even thought it was stupid to be crazily admiring stars who are out of reach.

However, this time it's different.

I must admit that I admire her coz she's simply FABULOUSO! Her singing talent, acting skill, pretty face, dance moves, good English, her affection and love to God (and her mom) are just some of the attributes I like from her.

I really look up to her as an artiste. She has character that many other Indonesian artistes don't. She's got style, she's got THE oomph.

Having said all this, I wonder about myself sometimes. Looking at how her career shoots up at such young age really got me thinking. What am I doing? What have I achieved? Our age difference is so li'l, yet she has made it big.

This is when admiration and envy collides.

I guess working hard really do pay off. She practices singing for hours in a day! She still has to practice dancing and, at the same time, juggle her time for many other activities. I don't think I'd be willing to sacrifice so much of my time coz I need lots of quality time for my loved ones (when I say "lots", I really mean a lot. Quality Time is one of my top preferred love language out of the 5).

However, if it makes me earn big bucks, perhaps I'd reconsider.

=p

Vell Signed off ♥ 12:45 PM

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

UPDATE

How time flies. I have been working in my family-owned business since May 2010. So now it's the 8th month already. Wow that's fast. It felt like it has only been 3 months.

I've gone through quite a lot ever since I'm staying with my family again. I fell ill more often than when I was in Sg, I get pissed more often and more easily as well. I miss Sg and the food. I even miss riding a bus! Hahahhaa!

I miss my friends, I miss Jun, I miss hanging out at Orchard Road or Tampines.

I know I regretted coming back to Indo for good. On the other hand, I will also be whining about how I miss my family if I were still in Sg.

It is better this way. Coz I don't wanna regret not being able to be present when any family member or relatives are in trouble (just like when my close uncle passed away).

I will keep on whining about how things in Sg are much better than in Jkt, but I won't live in regret. I will remind myself to put my feet forward to go for a better future.

I hope he can join me soon though :D

By the way, thx dad for the trip to Russia in September during the Hari Raya. Sorry, though, for playing too much that we made you upset.

Tthx babe for the polaroid camera and your effort to come and find me.

Vell Signed off ♥ 11:52 AM