Vell's Rainbowfied Life.

Monday, January 28, 2008

CURRENT RHYTHM

As I listen to my iTunes, I heard this song by FFH with a title of 'Lord move, or move me'. I think it suits my current situation. It goes like this...

FFH - Lord Move, or Move Me

I can't find the words to pray,
I'm a little down today
Can You help me,
Can You hold me?

I feel a million miles away,
And I don't know what to say
Can You hear me anyway?

What I need is for You to reach out Your hand
You have taught me no matter what You'd understand

CHORUS
Lord move in the way,
that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move (move), or move me.

I've looked every where to find a simple peace of mind
But, I can't find nothing on my own
So I gotta leave myself behind, take up this cross of mine
Give away everything, I hold on to You

Lord I know the only way is through this
But Lord, I know I need You to help me do this

CHORUS

Out of this place of complacency
To a place of fellowship with Thee
'Cause I am weak,
but Lord, You are so strong
And You know it's been way too long
It's been way too long

CHORUS

Vell Signed off ♥ 11:59 PM

Friday, January 25, 2008

PRAYER

It just occurred to me how contradicting human beings can get. I suddenly remembered about how my non-believer friends used to ask me to pray for them when they were trying to achieve or get something. Getting a job for instance.

The 1st Qn that came to my mind was why they want me to pray to my God for their success? The very fact that they asked from my God, it already means that they subconsciously believe that my God is real, right? If that so, then why do they need my help? I'm not being selfish or unwilling to pray for others. It's just that they've not even tried to pray personally for what they want. They've not tried to get to know my God. They want miracles but they don't wanna believe in His existence. How absurd can it get?

I saw a phrase that strike me after seeing it only once. It was shown after I withdrew some cash from the UOB ATM machine. They added 'Quote of the day' after every transactions. It goes like this 'Don't trouble others with what you can do yourself.' This sentence was told by a person but I can't seem to recall what was his name.

Many people just wanna take the easy way out. We want convenience and so we tend to get others to do our stuff. Often is because they're on the same way so it's more convenient for them to help us etc.

Perhaps it's the lack of responsibility or self-motivation. I feel that we just have to learn to be responsible over our own things. We've to take charge and be in control with the things that we've to do. The more we rely on others, the lazier we get. And the more others won't respect us.

I've learnt. But I'm not saying that I've changed completely. I'm trying to change myself to be more independent. I admit that I leech sometimes. But I believe that some day, I'll be a totally changed person.

-Ask and you shall receive. Prayer and fasting pour down miracles.-

Vell Signed off ♥ 1:28 AM

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

BLONDE, PURPLE, RED

Finally I'm different from the people out there, again. I highlighted my hair RED. Not being festive coz I colour it red when CNY is round the corner. I just like red and I think it's a cool colour :D

My hair is damaged once again but it doesn't matter. When my hair has grown, I'mma trim it. And it'll all be new black hair again. Neither soft nor shiny, but it'll still be better and less damaged. So I've no worries. I wanna enjoy this freedom while I'm still a student and am young. Wait till I work or have my own family, I can't have my hair this colourful anymore.

I've prophecy that many people might give negative comments, especially my family members. But I feel that this is the only thing I can do to show the wilder side of me. I'm not allowed to have more than a pair of earring holes, not allowed to have a tattoo either. So, at least allow me to play a lil bit with my hair, a'ight? :) Anyway I'm not that daring as to pierce some more ear holes or to get myself a tattoo even though I find it kindda cool. My treshold for pain is rather weak. I wonder how am I gonna stand the pain and agony during labour in the future.

So, anyways...Here's how my current hair look like.

I'm gonna have a great time listening to family members' complaints when I'm back there for CNY, which is soon. Hehehe. I'll be flying off on the 6th of Feb and return on the 9th. It's a very short trip but it's gonna be worthwhile coz I've been absent from family reunion for around 9 years already. Hehehe. I'm soooo looking forward to it :)

Vell Signed off ♥ 10:46 PM

Sunday, January 06, 2008

BACK IN S'PORE

I'm finally back in S'pore again. A place where I can blog with peace coz it's unlimited internet connection. The place where I've a lil bit more freedom to hang out with my friends till dawn. The place where I experience love and hate, happiness and sadness, stress and relax.

Alright now...I just wanna rewind a lil bit to my life back at Indo which I enjoyed very much. Afterwhich I've to wake up to reality and do my routine to go to sch again in the next few hours.

Mercy got a bit better a few days after being operated. He had to use that thing around his neck to prevent him from licking or biting the plaster on his thigh. And he was locked in that small blue cage coz we had to go off for dinner at a restaurant. Poor thing.

This pic was taken even later than the cage pic. He got very energetic and returned to his old self already. He enjoyed his bed and thanks to my tender loving care, he was so very loved. Hahaha. He loved me back and I felt it. Even my sisters felt it too. I'm missing him as I blog now. Hope his bone will be attached back soon.

This scorpion was found at Bogor, under a big heavy stone which was lifted up by my maid. It was then taken home to be kept as pet by my younger bro. The poisonous part on its tail was cut off by the maid who found it (the weird maid who is the prime suspect of throwing my poor Mercy off the 2nd storey over to neighbour's backyard).

Our way of celebrating new year's eve was to have a steamboat at home. The only absent family member was my older sis coz she had to join her bf's family dinner.

These were only the few bottles of softdrinks. There were still a couple more bottles somewhere else which I didn't include.

Ended the dinner with a slice of cool and sweet Vennetta ice cream. Then waited for the time to strike 12. Waited in front of the TV to countdown together with other people in Indonesia. My dad was so excited for a toast. He prepared a bottle of wine at 10pm!

After counting down to new year, we went to the field opposite my house to set the fireworks.

Off thew flew freely up to the night sky with a loud noise. We fire quite a number of fireworks but didn't capture all of them in the camera. Only the nicer ones are fit to be shared here. Hehe.

Oh yeah Mercy was curious to see too. So dad took him out :D

In the car, heading for Shangrilla hotel for a buffet dinner.

Reached the hotel already. Only took photos with my sis and not others coz she was the only one willing. Hahaha. Ate there on the 1st of Jan, the evening before my departure. All was present except Yun.

I just got myself a new wireless mouse from Jun as X'mas n new yr present. Thx jun! Love it alot :D Coz now I can be free from wire on the table when I surf the net. Hohoho. Oh yeah I'm hoping to get my new mobile phone. Gotta need Jiayi's IC. Hehehe. I'm so dependent on her. Thx alot JY! Love u alot! :)

Vell Signed off ♥ 11:59 PM