Vell's Rainbowfied Life.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Katong Shopping Centre

Went to KSC this morning to photocopy my HMT notes coz I borrowed Jiayi's photocopied version. Didn't wanna buy the book at 1st, but after I saw how the book was in such good condition, I kindda regret for have rejected it. LOL. O well... It's given to another friend of mine instead.

I was surprised how the shopping centre had evolved. Everywhere I go, I saw employment agency. Where the comic shops had gone to??? They're all changed into maids agency... Gosh. Are they changing the whole shopping centre into an all maid agency? LOL. That can't be happening!!! X( Luckily the top level is still the same. All the photocopying services. Cheap and good quality. The shop I went to has very nice owners, Both the uncle and aunty. She even offered me whether wanna make it double space instead..So that it won't be so thick. And the binding there is cheap too~ The photocopied pieces are such in good quality that the highligthed sentences can't be seen. Hahahhaa. Like brand new!!! So nice... Summore it only costed me S$11.40 which firstly I thought it'd reach around S$20. Feel so blessed after I knew the price. Hahhaa.

Anyway... I'm now in Limei's house. Have been here since around 1pm just now coz we wanted to do project. In the end I also didn't do and Jiayi tried to do but after she knew that we still have quite sometime to finish the other 2 projects, besides HRM that due 1st, she became relaxed and put aside the project. Hahaha. Not that we don't wanna do or lazy, but we don't have enough information as the lecturer is like... Not much of a help *Sigh*

Hopefully tmr he'd help us more properly, give us more info etc. Or else, we're gonna die. Hahaha. But not to worry... God's with me. When He's with me, who can be against me??? Hahhaa. Saturday svc is gonna be great. I think I've alot of spirits within me. Need to be delivered. Hahaha.

Anyway... I wanna go back to rest on the bed etc. now, have fun with Yaowen and Jiayi. Till next time, Velly out~

Vell Signed off ♥ 5:17 PM

Sunday, July 23, 2006

It's About Marriage

Went to svc today and the msg from pastor was great! It was about marriage. Hahaha. It taught me the real meaning of marriage. And also taught me on how to find the correct partner. There's 2 poems given at the sermon handout which I'd like to share. 1st is titled "Walls" which talks about a broken marriage. The 2nd is titled "I need you" which gives a better picture of what marriage really is. Here goes...

Walls

Their wedding picture mocked them from the table, these two whose mind no longer touched each other.

They lived with such a heavy barricade between them that neither battering ram of words nor artilleris of touch could break it down.

Somewhere, between the oldest child's 1st tooth and the youngest daughter's graduation, they lost each other.

Throughout the years, each slowly unraveled that tangled ball of string called self, and as they tugged at stubborn knots each hid his searching from the other.

Sometimes she cried at night and begged the whispering darkness to tell her who she was.

He lay beside her, snoring like a hibernating bear, unaware of her winter.

Once, after they had made love, he wanted to tell her how afraid he was of dying, but, fearing to show his naked soul, he spoke instead about the beauty of her breasts.

She took a course in modern art, trying to find herself in colors splashed upon a canvas, and complaining to other women about men who were insensitive.

He climbed a tomb called "the office", wrapped his mind in a shroud of paper figures and buried himself in customers.

Slowly, the wall between them rose, cemented by the mortar of indifference.

One day, reaching out to touch each other, they found a barrier they could not penetrate, and recoiling from the coldness of the stone, each retreated from the stranger on the other side.

For when love dies, it is not in a moment of angry battle, nor when fiery bodies lose their heat.

It lies panting, exhausted, expiring at the bottom of a wall it could not scale.

I Need You

I need you in my times of strength

and in my weakness;

I need you when you hurt

as much as when I hurt.

There is no longer the choice

as to what we will share.

We will either share all of life

or be fractured persons.

I didn't marry you out of need

or to be needed

We were not driven by instincts

or emptiness;

We made a choice of love.

But I think something supernatural

happens at the point of marriage commitment

(or maybe it's actually natural).

A husband comes into existence;

a wife is born.

He is a whole man

before and after,

but at a point in time

he becomes a man who also

is a husband;

That is - a man who

needs his wife.

She is a whole woman

before and after.

But from now on

she needs him.

She is herself

But now also part of a new unit.

Maybe this is what it means in saying,

"What God hath joined together."

Could it be He really does something special at "I do"?

Something like His creation of a mother when a woman gives birth;

(something so real that neither can quite survive again without the other).

Joining together - in marriage -

two self-sufficient beings

into an interdependence so real

That when you hurt I hurt

(there's nothing I can do about it!).

Your despair is mine

even if you don't tell me about it.

But when you do tell,

the sharing is easier for me.

(To know why I hurt, no matter how frightening the cause,

is easier than living with the theories that fear suggests.)

And you also can then share from

my strength in that weakness.

If we are one

then perhaps you don't always

carry the antibodies within yourself

to fight every infection.

Some wounds are healed

by resources carried in my part of our unit.

When part of a body is endangered

all the rest gears to its defense.

Shouldn't that be true in a pair so committed

they are called one flesh?

Vell Signed off ♥ 1:25 AM

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

3rd Week in SIM

Have been returning to lecture notes these few days. Uni life isn't that bad but it's not that good either. The good thing about it would be the slack timetable. My Tues & Thurs are free. However some days I need to stay till 10pm! Goodness. It's actually on every Friday for my HRM subject. Due to the working adults who joined our class, we have to suffer :( Bt it's not so bad lah.

Neeways...Just to summarise my life so far. Had been having supper for dunno how many nights when my aunt isn't back in S'pore yet (She just returned last night when I spent the night at Jiayi's). We boiled pasta with sausages. Afterwhich is mixed with a sauce brand Prego. Yum. Hahaha. Guess what...I just had some rice with kimchi a few mins before I started this entry. Hahaha. Kimchi is superlicious.

I had been planning to watch movies but it's always cancelled *Sigh* Anyone wanna go watch CLICK with me? Hahaha. It's gonna be so funny..Casted by Adam Sandler. Urrrghhh I can't waitttt. I must watch it in cinema and not some DVD. It's not gonna give the same effect and feelings and atmosphere :)

Erm...I've been spending alot these few days too. Bought new bag, shirt, skirt, etc. Spent on food also. Goodness gracious me :X
I'm scared with myself. I've to stop all this and start saving money again. Afterall, I have to help my parents financially by not spending so much. Since they've spent so much with yun's and my school fees and my laptop as well. I'm kindda grateful for them. Hehehe. Love both of them alot! :)

Till next time, Velly out~

Vell Signed off ♥ 11:41 PM

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

My Prayer (Translated)

My Lord,
I pray for a man who'll be a part of my life.

Someone who really loves You more than anything else.

A man who'll put me 2nd in his heart after You.
A man who doesn't live for himself but for You.

Good looks and physical attraction are not important. The most important thing is a heart that really love and thirsty for You and has the passion to be like You.

And he must know for who and what the purpose of his life is, thus it won't be wasted.

Someone who has a wise heart not only a smart brain.

A man who not only love me but also respect me.

A man who not only adores me but also able to correct me when I make mistakes.

Someone who loves me not because of my physical beauty but because of my heart.

A man who can be my bestest friend at any time and situation.

Someone who can make me feel like a woman being next to him.

I'm not asking for someone who is perfect, I'm asking for someone who's not perfect, therefore I can make him perfect in Your eyes.

A man who needs my support as his pillar. A man who needs my prayer for his life. Someone who needs my smile to overcome his sadness. Someone who needs me to make his life whole.

And also I pray:
Make me into a woman who can make him proud and happy.

Give me a heart that really loves You, so that I can love him with Your love, not only with my own love.

Give me Your gentle Spirit so that my beauty comes from You and not from my physics. Give me Your hands so that I can always pray for him.

Give me Your eyes so that I can see alot of his positivity and not only his negativity.

Give me Your mouth that's full of Your wisdom and motivation, so that I can encourage him every day.

Give me Your lips and I will smile at him every morning.

And when we finally meet, I hope that we could say "how great God is, because He has given me someone who can make my life whole." I know that You want us to meet at the right time and You're gonna make everything so beautiful when that time comes.

Amen.

Vell Signed off ♥ 6:21 PM