Vell's Rainbowfied Life.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Bless Me

I've been wondering why Liang said "scary" in my tagboard. Guess he had read my previous entry. Hahaha. For people who dont know, it might seems scary. But for believers, it's wonderful. :D

My semester is going to an end soon. Next week is my study week. Which means...no school for a week. But I'll be going to the sch library to study together with JJL & Jiayi. Hehehe. Exams are coming already! The 1st paper would be on the 5th of Sept. *Sigh* What a short semester we having. Nvm...No worries. I'll study and struggle..Have faith and sit for the papers. Then, I'd have my holidays for a week or so. And then....SIP Launch!!! Scary~ I'm gonna have to work for real, soon! Arghhh..Not really prepared yet, mentally and physically :p But think of the salary...I'm really in need of money this mth. Even though this mth is going to an end, I still in a real need of money for the next mth. Nvm..I will reap what I've sowed *Grins*

Anyways..Just returned home from church not too long ago. I've bathed and ate dinner before I finally came online. Suddenly felt the urge to post bout today's svc. It was so GREAT! Pastor Ulf Ekman (if I spell it correctly) came to CHC today. He prayed for the musicians, singers, people in the choir ministry, laid hands on some pastors who sat on the 1st row. And he also called the poly students to go in front. And wooooowwww...How I'm glad that I went up despite the skirt I was wearing. With just a tap on my forehead and my legs gone weak n tremble.. I fell straight away to the floor and lay there. It was the 1st time I fell after a tap. Last time, my leg didnt even tremble even though any pastor touched my head n pray. Hahaha. I guess the annointment of God was so powerful..And my mind was in a blank to receive Him, thats why I responded.

Thank You, God, for everything. Bless me Lord. Bless my family. Bless me for my coming exams. Bless us with health and harmony towards each other. Bless us financially. Amen :)

Vell Signed off ♥ 10:30 PM

Sunday, August 14, 2005

My Living God!!!

My God is EXTRAORDINARY!!! Hehehe. This is what I wanna shout out loud. Thank You Lord, for always standing by my side throughout my difficulties. Now most of our projects had been submitted. It's more relaxing now. However, the exams are coming soon too. But I'm not afraid. For He's always looking after me! :) Yeah..I've faith. Nothing is impossible when He's in charge!

I've faced many ups and downs for the past few days. I'm faced with rocky situations most of the time throughout my life. But I won't lose faith. I'll worship n praise Him more and more each day. I won't worship worship..but I'll only worship HIM, my living God. I don't wanna get distracted. I wanna wait upon Him. And also, bless me oh Lord..so that I can be a blessing to others.

There are many regrets in my life, but I won't look back. I will look forward instead. And I'm thankful for the experience.

I'll stop here. Till next time, Velly out~

Vell Signed off ♥ 2:45 PM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

STRESS!

So many things had happened. I dont even know what to say here. Nothing special happen, just normal daily life. Kindda boring. I'm currently having some tiring yet boring days of my life. I'm physically and mentally exhausted. *Sigh* So many projects to do. I'm still rather confused on what we are supposed to submit, but the deadline is coming soon. That is how fast and shortened my semester has become. It is terrible! So difficult to cope with school stuff. Arghhh! Felt like breaking down. I'm losing my senses sometimes. Tendencies of getting bad mood is higher these few days. Kindda absurd to get angry at nothing. X(

Starting to think about what is the purpose of my life again. Have been going to the church but yet I often feel that my life has been nothing. I've lost a sense of direction. Dunno who or what can trigger my excitement back. Where's the drive that can make me feel like living on? What's gotten into me? I wonder... Feel like quitting poly. Don't feel the urge to go to school anymore, even though I'd be able to meet JJL in sch. *Sigh* Often encourage myself to enjoy the days in sch, but just cant help it. I often felt bored and useless. My mind hadn't been able to work properly. Have been thinking so slowly like an idiot. =X

Btw, Happy national day to Singapore!!

Vell Signed off ♥ 1:00 PM