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| Monday, February 28, 2005 |
After the presentation, we all went to have our breakfast at BizPark. Then we went to the library to study Travel&Leisure and Clubs&Resorts. We were having an interview at 1.30pm. We were all so tensed and nervous. The 1st group was Weijie and the malay gals. They said the Qns given by the 2 tutors were tough. Then we were all like omgness~ LOL. But it turned out alright. Jul was a bit upset bout it, though. Coz she was given quite a hard Qn and she wasnt given any chance to answer other Qn they had. Poor her..Hope they're lenient. After the interview of 2 Qn on any topic frm both subj.s and 1 Qn about the porject, we once again went to...EAT!~ Hahaha. Liang was hungry (again). Dunno what's wrong with him today. I guess its due to stress? Well, who knows. Anyway, I also eat again...*Sigh* BUT! I only ate salad. Hehehe. Quite light, right? After our lunch, we went to the library again. This time, we rushed to study our Comm Skill. We were having a summative test at 4pm. Ms Lily Lim came late...Made us wait for her while she walked slowly. Haiz. Anyway the paper was VERY TOUGH.. And the time was very short. I didnt finish the paper. I skipped the last Qn. coz I couldnt recall anything to be the ans. Hahaha. I hope I'll get a "just pass". Even if I fail, hopefully other activities for CS2 can help me. I wouldnt wanna retake this shitty subj. Hell no!~ Hm...So, the bottom line for today is...I'm very tired. :p Last night my grandpa, uncle n aunt frm my dad side came to S'pore. It was a sudden, coz my dad just informed me in the afternoon. My grandpa wants to go for checkup. He's probably feeling weaker nowadays. He just went back from S'pore to Jkt and now he's in S'pore again. Hahaha. Funny isnt it. Yesterday afternoon, I chat with Hanyew in MSN. Asked him for some CS2 stuff but in the end I talked about more on personal stuff. Hahaha. It's the religious thingy. It was kindda nice to share my thoughts to someone. :) Well, he recommended 2 books to me but I must wait until I've the free time to search for them. Soon after I sorted everything for my CS2, printed out every peer notes n everything, it was quite late already. Then not long after that, the 3 of them came. They settled down, asked lotsa Qns to me, and I ended up worrying for my tests. I didnt study yesterday. Hahaha. Coz I'd to entertain my unc. It was weird...In a day, I received 2 teachings of religion. Christian from Hanyew in the afternoon, Buddhism from unc in the evening. Religions are trying to make me explode. I dunno which is right and which is wrong. All religions are from the past. Everybody will say that their religions are the true one. I'm having a real dilemma about this. Argh! Why am I not given a choice or a freedom to choose my own religion and let me just stick to that? Coz if we keep on comparing the different religion, it'd be endless. We'll just find some flaws from other religions. Why do they have to force me? Isnt it a sin to force own's religion to others when they dont want to? The BIG Qn is...Why am I going through this? Am I going through a trial, one of God's plan? It's hard for me to choose. Pls put an end to all this. I'm tired physically and mentally. Somebody pls help me. *Sigh* |
| Vell Signed off ♥ 9:21 PM |
| Thursday, February 24, 2005 |
Anyway, I was browsing through blogspots and found Han Yew's blog. His entries are all very Christian. Suddenly I start to feel this strange emotion. My mind started to play and asked a lot of questions. I turned to be a Buddhist again eversince my grandma passed away, which is just last Nov. However, I find it difficult to remove God from my head and heart. Nowadays, I always feel empty and have not been feeling my purpose of life. I dont rejoice or say any prayers to God anymore. I wanna go back to that path..I wanna worship Him again. But I was given some disturbing Qn. from my bro and the monk who prayed for my grandma. They made me think real hard about this religion issue. In Christian, it is said that everyone's life, birth and death is God's plan. But, how about those newborn who die just after their birth? and what about those handicapped? My bro stated that If God had planned our lives, why did He created them to be like that? In Buddhism, it makes more sense with the retribution and before or next lives. Another thing that has been troubling my mind is that Christian rely too much on God. Most of them say, pray and He will help you. But how can He help if u arent helping urself? We gotta work and give our best and pray for His guidance and blessing. Sadly, many people misunderstood it. They choose to pray hard without working. It doesn't make sense to me. There's 1 more thing...They say that if they have made a sin, they gotta go repent and God will then forgive them. Isnt this a li'l too easy? How if I rob a bank 1 fine day, and I know it's a sin, so I repent. My sins are all forgiven, right? So I'm free to do summore sin. Coz, I can just repent and it'll all be just fine. Right? HOWEVER!! After stating all my thoughts... I still can't forget and can't abandon this feeling. Last time I used to feel blessed each day, and I'd give thx to Him whenever possible. But now... I feel like a non-religious person. And I don't like the feeling. But if I turn back to God, my parents are against it. My grandparents, my parents, and now my elder bro n sis too. It's kindda hard to go against my parents and that's y my bro n sis r changing too. *Sigh* I guess I'm just gonna live life as usual. And we'll see what happen later on. |
| Vell Signed off ♥ 5:37 PM |
| Monday, February 21, 2005 |
Yay...What a relief...Had my 1st presentation done already. The Tourism & leisure business and the Clubs & resorts. It wasn't bad. We were all very nervous while we were practicing until after we had presented. At 1st we weren't very confident with our work, but after all groups had presented theirs, I felt ours was alright. The 1st group to come up was the malay gals with weijie. Theirs was ok. They presented very nicely and they were all very nicelly groomed. Next was my group. We were fine, lucky enough not to exceed the 20mins time limit. Actually Liang had created a logo for our project, but I don't have it in my comp right now. Will post it later on. :) The rest of the 2 groups exceeded the time. The 3rd group, Mingshu n co., talked too slowly. They used up almost 15mins for the 1st 3 speakers. Can u believe that?! Omg. I n Jiayi were counting the time for them and were worried for them. As for the last group, HanYew n co., they were worse.. They had 59 slides for a 20mins presentation! Must be hard on them. Hahaha. So in the end, not all of them got the chance to present. Hm...I wonder how will the tutors mark them. Today I took quite a lot of pics with my hp. In the library while practicing our speeches, in tutorial room before the presentation started, and after the presentation. My frens are so cute, aren't they? Hehehe. Love 'em all.
Jan, Me, & Jul2 in TP library Me & Jiayi in tutorial room |
| Vell Signed off ♥ 5:06 PM |
| Sunday, February 20, 2005 |
ARGHHHH! A real loud scream could really do me good! Haiz...So tired and stressed up. Sch is such a burden. Feel like I can drop out anytime. But touch wood! hehehe. I dont wanna disappoint my dad. Anyway, my family had all gone back to Jkt on the day before Valentine's Day. I had great times when they were here. Talked n chat alot with my sis n bro. Had my 1st puff when I was out with both of them at night. Now, I'm already missing them again. But I sure am glad that they've gone back, coz if not, I wont feel like going to sch. And that's bad!~ Anyway, I got to watch this movie called Hide and Seek. I need some relaxation and I was really eager to watch it. So, we went to see it on its 1st day release. The movie was not that nice afterall but it was shocking. It has a very unpredictable ending.
Alright, I gotta go to bed soon. Tmr's gonna meet up with friends earlier coz we need some practice before the presentation. Hope everything's gonna be OK. |
| Vell Signed off ♥ 10:32 PM |
| Tuesday, February 08, 2005 |
Anyways, my sis' friend is the richie rich guy, named Dion. He's like filthy rich and spendthrift. He bought my sis lotsa stuff, a Yves Saint Lauren bag, a 3-diamond ring, some clothes. I think that's about it. Hm...But my sis isnt ready to commit. Just hope that he's a good guy. He'll be flying back to Indo later this afternoon, I guess. But my sis will have another companion by my bro. My parents, younger n elder bros, n grandpa are coming to S'pore in the evening. Yun is gonna fetch them at the airport. I'd love to fetch, but unfortunately I wouldnt wanna let them wait for me. =p I'm a slow person. *Sigh* So I'll just wait for them at home and welcome them at the doorstep. I've been pretty busy these days that I get confused so easily. I used short-term names to save all of my projects and I get mixed up sometimes. I feel so stupid. :( I'm even too busy to remember my own timetable. I think I'm gettin senile already. Alright..So later I'm still having my HR tut class at 10am. Will end at 12pm. After that, I'll probably meet up with my elder sis to unwind a li'l bit. Hopefully my CNY will be just fine, wish that my parents would give me some hongbao to add to my allowance. I'm having a financial difficulty. *Frowns* Maybe I should hunt for a richie rich guy, just like my sis. :p That's all for now...Will continue other time..Buhbye~ |
| Vell Signed off ♥ 12:54 AM |
| Thursday, February 03, 2005 |
Anyways, I did varieties of projects today. I did my CS2 online assignment, FILA for my HR problem 2, and Travel & Leisure Business online quiz. Didnt do that much, actually, but was quite tiring. Oh no... I just realise I haven't touch on my Leadership & Character project. Uh oh~ But there isnt anymore time left for me to do now. Soon I'm gonna watch TV, the usual show on Ch8. There's gonna be some sad scenes tonight. I cant wait. :) Oh well, today I chat quite a lot with jul2. Had some gossips, stories, and some complains. I enjoyed it very much. It was the longest conversation I had with Jul on MSN. Hehehe. We shared our thoughts. And it filled my day. :D. Liang came online this morning, but he left for a bath and nvr return. Jan was online too. I sent her a testimonial in friendster, twice! Coz she said the 1st one was accidentally rejected. Haaha. She also wrote a testimonial back for me. So sweet of her. :). Jiayi was so enthu the whole of this morning. She kept on doing her projects. She was the 1st one to talk about L&C stuff. We both are suppose to do on Mother Teresa. Quite tough *Sigh*. Then, my classmate, Han Yew, kept on asking me for the resources of our project. He's doing on the same topic as mine, Quality of Work Life. Cant stand his voice through the mobile. He sounds like mumbling. Anyway, my elder sis is coming to s'pore later on. So now I'm gonna catch the TV show and I'm gonna go to the airport at 10pm or so. Hehehe. Going alone coz yun is having some problem with her left jaw. It started to sting, right after she yawned widely. Dunno what's wrong with it. Hopefully it isn't very serious. |
| Vell Signed off ♥ 9:02 PM |
| Wednesday, February 02, 2005 |
After the announcement by Mrs Mok, I saw my group members' faces turned worried. I felt so guilty. Dammit. I am truly sorry, guys. I think I'm 1 of the failure. Argh X(. Anyway, the good graders in my class are actually cheating. They got some tips from other class whose tutor gave them the topics that would be asked. Unfair right?!?! Luckily, they were back to normal while we were doing our FILA. Mrs Mok was also very nice, just like every other day. She laughed along with our jokes, and she is a very nice lady indeed. :). When I was finally back home and was playin the comp, listening to 1 of the indo songs, I felt some sadness inside. I sang along with the song, and as I sang the high notes, my tears started to flow. I didn't know what was wrong, I just felt like crying that afternoon. I'm still wondering what's wrong with me. But I felt great after that. Had a cold bath and continued with whatever I was doing. :) Today, we got back our CS2 resume & observer's report results. My resume wasn't very good but I scored quite well for my observer's report :). We also got back our online assignment result. My grp got a 'B'. Hehehe. However, those interviewed weren't very happy with their results. Ms Lim wasn't being very lenient towards them. Jan was unhappy with her mark and her face showed it all. She was upset & disappointed. I guess she did lotsa preparation the day before the interview. I felt sorry for her. But I think 1 interview won't pull down her CS2 grade? I don't know, let's hope not. |
| Vell Signed off ♥ 10:12 PM |
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